Olive's Sweet Secrets

2005-06-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Life is so fragile..u nv noe when ur loved ones might jus leave this world..y am i saeing this?cos i jus came bk from my cousin's wake.he was onli 27..gg to get married nx yr but he died cos a v thin blood vessel in his brain burst..went into coma for a few daes den left. Though im nt so close to him, i noe tt his famliy members n gf esp must be in so much pain now..cryin till theres no more tears left to cry. i jus hope God will watch over him n his family now.

On a happier note, 2dae i went to bugis in the afternoon n bought some stuff. A keychain for my new wallet (cos i lost my old one=(...haiz..wonder whr izzit now..in some drain? or dustbin?), n a pig stuff toy..actuali somebody bought it for me.=) it was so irresistably cute! i love pigs! maybe cos they're pink!hehe! wad i like most bt the one i bought is tt its scented(lavender)! i can sniff it all dae..! after this im goin to sniff it again..hehe!off i go..niteZ!

2005-06-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was such a gd day for me n my grp!Beat 2 teams from hcjc at the competition.We thought they were goin to get the gold cos the powerpoint was kinda impressive n they were humanity scholars and all tt..b4 the results were announced we were already preparing for the worst cos b4 tt i somehow overheard tt there was onli 1 team tt got gold.Turns out tt tt team was OURS in the end..!haha!=)was overjoyed!5 more pearls pt for us!The reason y we beat hcjc was cos their presentation was too complicated to understand n follow and they were speaking too fast!i mus sae we nailed out q n a!haha! lili,wenhui n susanny..u guys r a great bunch to work with!*cheers*=)

2005-06-02T00:27:00.000+08:00

4gt to tok bt my class bbq on fri..haha!my sequence abit screwed up..reached bedok mrt at bt 630 n while waiting for some pple..me n my frends went to the hawker centre there to buy the famous tiong bahru zuey kway!it was damn nice la..wish i cld hv more..but didnt wanna spoil my appetite.Only reached the beach at bt 8 cos we waited so long for the shuttle bus tt nv came till we decided to take a cab in the end.The food was quite gd..sting ray..prawns..chicken wing..the usual bbq stuff but didnt eat the $10 worth cos i was more interested in gg to the beach wif my frend n admiring the stars..i hv nv seen as many stars as i saw there i tell u!There were SOO mani n they were so beautiful!we spotted scorpio..den went to the rocks there n shouted as loud as we cld to get all the stress outta us!Felt damn shiok after tt!U all shld try if u can on dae..dont care..nx time my bf or husband beta bring me go see stars!haha!i love them!played sparklers too..lighted them den threw them into the sea..the parabolic motion of the fire was damn nice.reahed hm at 12 then Zzzz..

Yup..cant wait for the 16th . My mum is goin to treat a few of my frens to dinner then we'll all go clubbing after tt.dont hv to try so hard to get pass the bouncers animore..ill b 18 then!yay!hope this time we can all go to some place wif GOOD music!=)

2005-06-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

HeyZ..jus got bk from choir camp!me n my frends were kinda worried cos half a wk has passed n we still hvnt started studyin yet due to the camp n all the preparation for the competition on sat. b4 u noe it,the 1st wk wld hv passed jus lik tt..anw,i shall blog bt the camp first :

may30-31st:

The first day was filled wif games..games n more games from morning to night. The attendence was also the best among the 3 choir camps i had so far.During the morning game,i had to be carried all the time in this game cos i was the lightest in the grp as usual..but quite fun cos didnt hv to walk.ha!Thks for all the carrying guys!=P .My conductor joined us for awhile at night n bought us lots of tidbits which i tot was kinda sweet of him!thx mr liew!Watched moulin rouge at night..tho tt was my 5th or 6th time watching it,i still enjoyed it lots..tt show n titanic i can watch a 100 times! the songs r lik super nice tt i actuali bought the soundtrack last time=)Slpt at 230..oh ya..tt night the sky was so clear tt we cld see so many "diamonds" in the sky..it was sooo nice sitting on the track n admiring the stars..!Woke up at 645 to prepare bfast for the rest the nx dae..Tues was kinda slack..played polar bear n charades..sounds lame but i hvnt laughed so much b4 than when i was playing it..im reali gonna miss tt side of the choir!

When i got hm tt night..i did my work for like half an hr then *plop*..fell aslp at 830..woke up at 1030..washed up den slpt until 10 the nx dae..haha pig!hvnt slpt so long in quite some time! Then went to my frens hse to do the project in the aft. n here i am typing this now..ohya..n i lost my ez link card yesterdae at some mrt station too..sad cos i lost some stuff tt meant alot to me..nt reali the ez link n stuff cos those can b replaced..some other stuff i cant sae..but hapi cos it gvs me a reason for me to use my new wallet.haha!bought it lt xmas n hvnt used it up till now..ohwell..gg to make new ezlink tmr..ill miss my old p6 photo..(rmb the one i look lik a fiilpino maid wif tt set of teeth n hair)haha! gg to make new one tmr..tts all for now..niteZ~

2005-05-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

Present day:
1 more wk to june hols..cant wait!cos ill b meetin up wif my old frends again(Simwan n gang)n gg out wif some pple i seldom go out wif..n will b stayin over at hyatt wif frends on my bdae again..this is the 3rd yr im doin it oredi..haha!but this time with a new grp of frends..my clsmates!this june hol will reali be a whole lot better than last yr cos of reasons i cant sae here..last june was damn sucky..pple hu noe me well shld noe wad happened last yr durin this time=( but things r lookin gd this yr=) esp this couple of days..suddenli so become so nice..haha!but the prob is she has mood swings quite often..like once in 2wks or sth..n when she has it..she changes completely..n it becomes such a one sided thing..cant stnd it.oh well..im enjoying how things r now!hehe!

Yeah..tts bt it..hope ill hv more time to update in june so tt u all wun gv up on my bloggie.hehe!Take care all of u!will c u all real soon=) NiteZ!

2005-05-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

HEYZ!!!oh boy..got lots of typing to do tonight..hvnt been updating nt cos got nth happening my my life now..but cos of one word..laziness..haha!everytime i go online i tell myself mus rmb to blog but in the end it jus slips outta my mind.Let me tok bt the more eventful stuff tt happened in the past 3months now..

BLOG TEST:(march)
quite satisfied wif my blogtest results except for econs.tell u y im satisfied even though its kinda sucky still..for last yr mid yr exam,i got 000e..haha..for end yr i got eee0..so wad did i expect nx..ddde right?haha..but i dropped chem n worked quite hard n in the end i got bce this yr.=)my goal for blog test 2 is for everythin to get atleast a C.=p

CHOIR CONCERT/SYF(April)
After blog test in march,had choir almost everydae den nearer to the concert which was on april 15th...it became an everyday thing!it was reali intensive..imagine preparing for a concert in bt 2wks..but in the end we pulled it off.though it wasnt the best concert iv had..im thankful tt we cld atleast hv a concert 2gt this yr.

After the concert,it was bk to practice as usual for syf.sang everydae until had sore throat for one wk.Luckily i managed to recover a few daes b4 syf.Tt one wk i felt so empty w/o my voice..u noe me la..no voice=no singing=bored olivia!Was so diff. to teach sectionals too..

Then the day came..may 4th..i sang my heart out n savoured every moment of it cos i noe this will b the last time gg for syf.Saw alot of my sec sch frends/choir frends there..from rj,cj,aj etc..it got me thinking bt life in choir bk in the sec sch daes.Reali miss it like shit now..the feelin of gettin the gold in sec 4,gg to australia for tour n all the cool perfomances. In the end we managed a silver. Was i disappointed? kinda..i duno.the feeling was reali hard to describe..i already knew we wld get a silver so was prepared for it but was still kinda sad tt we dint get a gold,watching all the other schs get it. Now im beginning to think tt syf is so predictable..esp for jc choirs.Ur choir gets a gd conductor,chances r..ull get the gold..oh well..so much for tt..we still cant step dwn now..still got a camp in june n gotta sing for council commendation in july.Choosing the new com will be fun!haha!get to conduct the interview dis time!

Ok.beta post this up first..

2005-02-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

sorie guys..hvnt blogged for quite some time cos as usual, hv been busi wif work,choir n stuff.hv been practicing like mad for todae's cny concert.tink its such as waste of time actuali..no pts n hv to sing stupid songs.dis sat mus perform at orchard road for the orchard of hope thing.looks like i cant escape from tt stupid place.in case ur wondering y i sae tt, its cos for the last 3 wks,i hv been doin cip there n i tell u, tt place is disorganised n chaotic to the pt tt it makes u feel like jus gg hm or gg to shop!its damn pissing off..p pple hu hv gone there wld noe..thk God i got my 12 hrs oredi. after dis sat im nv stepping bk into tt place again..
i also feel quite irritated bt another thing.imagine dis: u study like 3 times harder than someone else,pay attention in cls n do ur tutorials while tt person doesnt,but when the test scores come out,tt person does beta than u!its so..urrrghh!like is there justice in this world!n its worse cos tt person sometimes ask u for help cos hes unsure bt certain stuff. if u hv experienced dis kinda shitty feeling b4,pls tell me k..atleast i wun feel so pathetic.
on a happier note,2dae i went out wif ruifen n gang to celebrate her bdae.i think its reali cool tt d 4 of us can still b comfortable wif each other after 1 yr + n even though we 4 r from diff schs.theres njc,ajc,nyjc n me sajc.my 2 others closest frends in sec sch,sam n jan r in cj n acjc. all my closest frends reali got split up from each other man.but yay!we r still in contact.
50 more mins to cny!cant wait to play black jack tmr nite..i made a bet wif wen hui tt if i won,i hv to treat her to a drink in sch but if i lost, then she'll buy my fav drink for me..green tea!haha!wish me luck..
sometimes i wish i hadnt known u so tt none of us wld b in such a diff. situation..its nt as simple as u think,esp nt when u onli hv 24 hrs a dae n ur caught in the middle of like heaven n earth.hadnt had a frendship prob since sec 2 man!n now..haha..
niteZ!

2005-01-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

my heart's beginning to qn some things..n i realise tt no matter how hard u try to forget n move on wif some things, they'll jus nv go away.2nite sth happened tt reali made me think..some things in life will jus nv feel the same again.even if it used to be wad ur heart was all abt...

2005-01-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

i was jet-lagged when i came bk..slpt n slpt the whole dae..nv slp so much b4!but after bt 2 daes i finali adjusted bk.went to the boon lay countdwn for awhile yesterdae then to the esplanade one.the esplanade one was reali lousy.no one reali counted dwn like 5,4,3,2,1..n so pple didnt reali noe when to start cheering.n they cancelled the fireworks somemore!nx yr i wun go bk there man..n todae my phy tcher asked us to finish up the last tutorial of the term 3 notes..can u believe it..she had 2 months to tell us but she onli told us todae..haha!shes tryin to b funny..anw,happi new yr to everyone!!!n reali hope this new yr will be beta than the last in one wae or another.one more dae to enjoy!i had beta savour every moment of it!take care guyZ!until nx time..SayOnArA!

2005-01-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

sorie peeps..been kinda busi tryin to finish up my hw so didnt reali hv time to blog bt my trip.vegas was fun..went to the indoor theme park again n sat the roller coaster for bt 7 times..plus the other 2 times i went i think bt 20 times oredi..crazy right..my 2 other fav rides were the flume ride n the inverter..they hv tt at pasir ris too!haha!i went to the Grand Canyon too..it was quite an experience taking a helicopter dwn into the valley n seeing how all the rivers merge n seperate..whao..geography is ALIVE!haha!watched those kinda nite shows there too..one was called american superstars..it is whr pple impersonate famous singers in america like britney n christina..sth hard to find in spore.
Skiing in Aspen i reali enjoyed..i dun care im gg bk there dis yr or sth!me n my sis learnt how to ski n after like 1 n a half daes, we cld ski dwn the easiest course of the mountain.. our instructor said tt if we come bk dis yr we'll b able to go onto the intermediate course which is o cos more challenging.i tot it wld reali be freezin up there but acuali once u start skiing, ur body can get quite warm n it feels damn shiok.i braved -8 degrees..haha!on the dae we were supposed to go bk..we had to wait in L.A for quite a no. of hrs cos our flight was at night..so we decided to take a short trip to beverly hills n jus walk arnd there.i wldnt wanna go there again..all u see is all the branded stuff!u name it they hv it!everythin is so pricy..there is this shop tt sells all sorts of boxers n they cost like 80 u.s dollars per piece!n the chinese food dwn there is reali..er hem..they serve one big bowl of rice when u order a plate of noodles n sae tt some americans eat the rice wif the noole sauce..like OK..
the 18 hrs non stop flight bk hm was..LONG!worst part is tt i had cramps on the plane cos tt thing came!urgh!yup..so tts bt it for my trip..beta post this first.

2004-12-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

oops..hvnt been updating my blog..let me see if i can rmb all the things tt happened after coming bk from genting..
i rmb i celebrated sim wan n joanna's bdae on 10 dec.i had no regrets at all watching national treasure cos it was such an exciting show!u all shld go catch it!beta than oceans 12..oceans 12 is so boring n nth comapred to the 1st one..dun waste money on it..ok i sound like those kinda pple gving movie reviews..but i had lotsa fun wif them in the arcade playing air hockey n screaming our asses off for no apparent reason,n eating jap food at cine..bumped into her in the cinema too..she happened to watch the same show at the same time at the same cinema..haha!
3daes ago 5 pple came to my hse for fun..shi hua,wen hui,yu lan,jun jie n weiguang.wen hui brought her roller blades so i was roller blading d whole time in the tennis court while the rest were playin tennis.they all sae tt im a reali fast learner..=)im so hapi tt i can blade now..n i hvnt fallen once since the first time i tried at pasir ris..yay!picked up sth new over this hols!after tt we went swimming n had so much fun playing freeze in the pool!wha lau..dun see weiguang like quite plump or wad..he can swim damn fast man!nv judge a bk by its cover!haha!n my sis was so fascinated wif his body cos she said tt it resembles the shape of a smiley face!go figure..haha!
n right now i hv one hr left b4 i gtg to the airport.will be in vegas n aspen skiing for 10daes..bk on the 28th..ill continue to blog there when i can..but ill sure miss everything n everyone here..my bed..my hp..the tv..all my frends hu hv made d hols so much more fun for me..n of cos u!!!
so wishing everyone a MERRY ADVANCED XMAS!!!=) byeezz!

2004-12-04T01:32:00.000+08:00

im finali bk from everything..genting n choir camp!wad a long wk it has been 4me..can finali jus stay hm n slack the nx few daes..bought some clothes n other "small stuff" lik dis leopard skin pencil box in genting..fake one..haha!=) cldnt resist the urge of buyin it when i saw it! went to sunway lagoon also.my fav ride was the hammer.the ride tt goes 360 degress!felt damn gd up there when i wasnt holdin at all..haha!im such a thrill seeker..!choir camp was also quite fun..though there werent so mani activities, the company there was gd enuff to make it fun..we watched the incredbles n mean girls atnight!i duno y but i find incredibles boring..esp the first part..tok n tok. it was my 2nd time watching it somemore..was like sleeping thoughout half the show!but when it came to mean girls i was like.."Yaayy!"haha!tmr goin to sell pins at orchard n nx wk gonna celebrate sim wan's bdae!other than tt..theres nth else so far..gg to vegas arnd the 14-17 there..i dun wanna go!!!atleast not for so mani daes..until the 26th..always go to tt stupid place jus cos my dad wanna go wif his frends to gamble!hate it when me n my sis hv to tag along my mum when shes shopping!den when we ask her to let us go by ourselves she'll sae "oh cannot cannot!dis is nt spore..later pple catch u n rape u!" shes 4eva toking bt nth but pple will catch u! the things there r so ex too..nt like hong kong or atleast australia is beta..oh well..ill miss everything n everyone for sure!beta enjoy the nx wk in spore..NitEz..!

2004-11-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

oh man..its so hard to get the song tt i want from iweb..!they dont even hv popular songs like right here waiting and all my life by kc n jojo..nt onli tt..tt website is always lagging n will hang alot too!nvm..atleast i found another of my favourites..*phew* but i want right here waiting!!!cos its "our" song wheneva i go overseas..!oh well..noe wad she told me tt yest..she said i mus cry if i hear tt song when im overseas..haha!4daes in genting is nth compared to 10daes in U.S..but wadeva it is..dun change when i come bk k..i trust tt u wun do anithing silly..n t.c of urself too..dun fall sick again hor..n cant wait to go out wif u all on the 9th..dun think iv forgotten bt u guys..u all r always so encouraging n supportive!even though we're nt even in the same sch animore..makes me feel so blessed!t.c 2!ill b bk soon!byeZ!

2004-11-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

had a slight fever todae..but still had to drag myself to go for choir in the morn..sometimes i reali feel so tired bt all the choir stuff..the pple r not commited,attendence is horribly pathetic,the tchers dun gv a damn bt anithing n i wun even dare to talk bt the standard. everytime we organise or plan sth for them,it either gets cancelled or they r not interested. e.g ,the trip to hong kong..they came up wif 1001 excuses as to y they didnt wanna go..den the choir camp..d tchers said tt since so few pple r goin we shld cut dwn the camp from 2nites to 1nite n cos of tt..the treasure hunt tt we planned so hard for at sentosa has to be cancelled too..it has been almost a yr n we hvnt achieved anithing!i had so mani dreams for the choir when i became the pres..i wanted the pple out there to noe the S.A choir isnt some loser choir..but now i can see tt its reali hard to do tt..i always feel like gving up but somehow i noe i cant n i wun..cos i still hv some hope for the choir..we still hv 2005 to make a name for ourselves..ohwell, wish me luck..
ill be goin to genting on sat..ill reali miss u!!!u mus get well soon k if not ill reali b worrying my ass off over there..thx for being such a sweetie since last wk too..cos of tt,iv reali been hapi the past wk!*hugZ*=)

2004-11-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

im bk from the crusie!its over so fast..=( n now everyone is feelin so tired cos of the late nites..me n the girls played cards in the rm n went to the arcade most of the time. n the guys were fooling arnd in the rm playin strip black jack.wen hui had a complimentary bdae cake on sat n all the filipino waiters were like singing a bdae song for her so loudly..haha!also sang karaoke wif my mum on the first nite..actuali goin on a cruise is damn boring..but its the company of ur frends tt makes the whole trip much more enjoyable..thx for gg on the cruise wif me u guys! i reali had lotsa fun wif u all..n ill reali miss those moments tt i had wif her n my frends!noe wad..im still thinking bt it now..=) nx thing to look 4wrd to..genting/sunway lagoon wif relatives n family..niteZ!

2004-11-19T01:55:00.000+08:00

oops..hvnt been bloggin lately..lets c wad r the highlights of the month.went to celebrate soph's bdae on mon!i had losts fun watching those 2 vcds at r.fs hse..haha!50 first dates was sweet n sch of rock was cool!a gd wae of saving money i mus sae..bought my other frend a big carebear for onli 19.90 too!haha!i cldnt contain myself when i saw it a taka!it was so cute n hugabble..i WANT!haha!
had class chalet on tue n wed at dwntwn east dis wk..so gld i learnt how to roller blade after 10 mins!guess noeing how to ice skate helps quite a lot..nx time mus go again!thx 4 teaching me wen hui! she said tt i m quite an easi student to handle cos im so light she can jus drag me along the wae!=p..i slpt the most cos the nite b4 didnt slp much..went swimming n got such an obvious tanline at my back..i tot if i stayed in the pool i wldnt get it but surprisingly,i bacame darker than my frends hu were tanning..wad is this man!i dun wanna be dark..haha!makes me look thinner!
had a fantastic nite wif someone after tt..i cant sae much here u all shld noe y but im sure u noe wad im referring to..17nov..thx for the nice dinner!n all the presents..n im also gld tt we managed to clear up all the probs we were hving the past few daes..feel tt a great burden has been lifted up of my shoulder now!=)n i feel tt we've also grown alot more closer n stonger after all the numourous silly fights we've had..im so gld tt we r still 2gt after everything tt has happened..thx 4 everything k?*hugz*may we hv a 4th n 5th n....!yeah!
2dae had cramps the whole dae..!so damn painful i had to cut tuition short cos i cldnt concentrate at all..but luckily it came todae cos tmr IM GOIN STAR CRUISE WIF MI FRENDS!all 6 of them:

wen hui,shi hua,bei ning,francis,timo n joel
hope we'll hv lotsa fun on board 2gt!i mus reali thk God for gving us such a chance to go on a cruise 2gt man!it had always been my dream n wish to go wif u..cant believe it finali came true!Thank you God!its such a great gift for me..will come bk after this sun n blog bt it!as usual..im gonna join the karaoke contest..haha!nth to lose la..got choir tmr..beta slp now..niteZ!

2004-11-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

yay!!op is finali over..the "q n a "was quite bad..almost everyone kena a hard qn..but i think i did ok in the presentation..dun care bt it animore la..pw sux tts all i noe..the onli thing ill miss is the crazy times me n my grp had..thx for being such a wonderful grp man!the best project grp i eva had!haha!got bk my results slip todae too..nth to be prd bt..i mus reali work harder..im so disappointed wif my grades la..sigh!chinese on fri..felt like i nv reali study for it..but to me its like 70%luck lor..c whether lucky lucky come out the word or su yu tt u noe..i jus wanna get a b4..but easier said than done..oh well..
im so OVERJOYED tt i found the canon song!at looong last man!=)gg to hv steamboat wif my class after chinese on fri!yumm..
2 tt someone hu is SUPER STRESSED bt op n pw..dun worie..i noe u can do it k?ur eng so zai!i believe in u k?jus dun be so uptight bt it n ull be fine..ill pray for u k?*hugz*

2004-10-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for the 19th of nov!n the 15th!15 cos im celebrating soph's bdae n sth else..19 cos ill be gg 2 star cruise wif 3 of my clssmates,francis n 2 of his frends..i cant believe jus how lucky i am..haha!sorrie weiguang n weehong..cldnt bring u guys this time..therell always be a nx time..=p!tmr gg ice skating wif mi frends cos got no sch..quite tired now so gg to slp..miss d 3 of u badly..rui fen,soph n sim wan!thx for not 4getting be me after almost a yr k?u 3 r reali my true frends!=)niteZ!

2004-10-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

2dae we had open hse..think there wasnt as much pple as last yr..good!they shldnt come to s.a..some pple like me might regret it..n i wun sae y here..!anw,spent most of the time gving out the door gift and flyers..mus sae tt alot of pple liked the door gift so i was quite hapi!n i feel like sueing the western food store..haha!it already has a bad reputation..n guess wad..after eating the chicken chop wif macaroni todae..i puked it out b4 my choir performance..there mus hv been sth wrong wif it lor!oh well..mus sae tt my choir pals reali r the best n the ones hu make me laugh the most..esp the guys!theyre so full of crap in the fun wae..they had to be our walking advertisments..haha!den i stand beside the person gving out the door gift n flyers..haha!n i wanna sae again..guys in choir r NOT gay..!they jus hv a passion for singing!yeah!tho i cant stand the sch n the standard of choir, i reali like the pple there..n some of my clssmates too..i always tell myself to make the most outta wad i hv n to treasure the things i hv no matter wad..

the last few daes n nights were filled wif pw..my grp did pw at my hse 1nite ago until 12 am!!!then the guys went hm n the girls stayed over..everydae if its not pw its choir..maybe its good oso la..den i wun feel so bored..tmr pw again!aiyoh..PW SUCKS..dis is d duno how mani times iv said this..it jus SUX la!

as for my hol plans..im gg star cruise wif 2 of my clssmates on the 21st..den genting/sunway as always on the 4,5,6 dec n choir camp on 1,2,3 dec.cant wait!oh yes..n celebrating celebrating sophs bdae on the 15th of nov!17th nov is also a v special date..tell u more bt it soon..niteX!

2004-10-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

(continued from previous one)
in the afternoon i had choir..for open hse im in the door gift com. so spent the afternoon looking for the thing we needed at bras basar..duno how to describe the "thing" so nvm la..but we were all so shagged on the bus..duno y after exams everyone seems to be so tired..actuali the ans quite obvious la..den went to macs after tt to make the door gift den it was hm sweet hm..my sis was sooo hapi i didnt get first..mym mum asked me to gv her $5 worth of popular voucher but u c her like tt how u expect me to gv..!!!

TUES:
our laoshi told us our chinese marks todae..i was so surprised to noe tt i got 53 which is a c5..tot i wld hv jus passed..C5 might be nth to some of u pple..but to me n the other 3 pple in my class from the "poor chinese gang",it means the world to us!im so HAPPII!gonna get bk the other results over the nx few daes..wish me luck..!heard the phy mcq average score is 8/20 across the level..dis means theres gonna be moderation!haha!
went to do pw after sch..we were all like sleeping half the time at my frends hse..either on the bed or on the sofa..damn tired the past few daes..went to waffle town at balmoral plaza after tt..the mash potato there is the BEST!beta than KFC i tell u..u all mus try!$1 onli same size as KFC somemore!

WED:
STOMACH CRAMPS todae!!!!!!!every month also hv..y am i one of the suay ones..!we went for a grooming course in the morning..was quite enriching n funny la..there was one part whr the woman told us we hv to noe wad colours suit us n mine is spring colour..bright n light..like PINK!!!n yellow..!yay pink!
on the com doin pw now..everydae is full of pw..dis is crap man!i hate pw!oh well..tts enuff bloggin for one nite..niteZ!

2004-10-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

let me start wif mon first..
mon was the dae of the music awards so i had to get up at 5.30 to warm up my voice..imagine singing at 6 in the morning..luckily my neighbours didnt complain..think its cos they cldnt hear la..so i did the usual warm ups n sang the song like 8 times on the karaoke..i was quite relieved tt my voice didnt sound so bad on tt morning,maybe cos iv oredi been practising intensively the past few daes..den went to sch n dressed up n got ready for the ting..at tt time i was kinda scared but not tt bad cos i jus kept telling myself to HV FUN..tts the mst ipmt thing to me..DEN..d time came when it was time to go on stage..1st time up on stage singing infront of a few hundred pple n some tchers..the MCs were like .."....n here to perform for us is olivia..olivia please.."so i walked up on stage n guess wad i saw..dis grp of pple right at the back of the hall holdin up 8 vanguard sheets which said "GO OLIVIA!"turned out to be tt francis made it for me on sun n he wanted to gv me a surprise tt dae...i was like AWWW..!!!haha!=0)well,it reali made my dae!actuali i enjoyed the time up on stage..after awhile i wasnt scared at all..i jus imagiend i was a STAR!!!haha!no la..im far from it..i loved watching dem wave the banners as i sang..tt was reali sweeT!n after i sang my clssmates stood up for me..haha!thz guys!
den came the surprise..the audience were supposed to vote for their fav contestant thru sms n the results cld instantly be seen on the screen behind us..thx to all those pple hu voted for me..i had the highest no of votes from the start..haha!overall i won 2nd($30 hmv voucher) plus the popularity award($50hmv n $10 popular)..was quite hapi bt it..but ahhhh..y no throphy dis yr..=( oh well,so much for the music awards..i wun wanna sing tt song for the nx few months man!
after the thing ended i asked him wad he was gonna do wif the banners n he said he was gonna throw it away..i was like...siao ah..u took so long to do it den u wanna throw away..so i decided to keep it..(quite duh right...lol!how can i not)he said he locked himself in his rm the whole sun afternoon making dis surprise for me..thx man!ur reali sweeEeEt!*hugZ*n thx to all the other pple hu supported me too like my cls,his cls,my choir pals,other pple in sch, n SIM WAN,SOPH,n RUI FEN!u guys were behing me all the wae n i reali appr. it k?*hugZ* for u all 2!

2004-10-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

had quite a fun-filled afternoon 2dae..the choir com. came to my hse to discuss bt open hse n other stuff..n im supposed to gv a pep talk bt the pples attitude towards choir on mon.sienZ..they sae tt im not firm enuff too..haha!i noe tt from dae 1..how can a sweet lovable girl like me eva be firm..=)*blinks eyes*i dun like being firm la..i wanna do it in a more friendly wae..oh wells..guess i gotta try to be abit more firm..
after tt we watched the exorcist part 1 on vcd..wasnt tt scary jus the girl's hideous face!it was gross man..n alot of bad n offensive words too!so long as u believe in God n not play wif stuff like ouija board,u wldnt be possesed..haha!
im not on gd terms wif my sis too cos she pissed me off real bad on thur night..told my dad sth which she shldnt hv..n i took my sweet revenge on her n told my dad stuff bt her too..we'll see hu has the last laugh!
1 more dae 2 d competition..oh man!HELP! to my one n onli..i promise u i wun let u dwn on tt dae n tt ill sing my best k..!
niteZ!

2004-10-09T01:51:00.000+08:00

yay!exams r finali over..!can do the things tt i cldnt do for the past few wks like..singing karaoke..reading storybk(princess diaries 6)..slacking..n gg out..d exams were beta than common test for sure but made alot of careless mistakes for maths as usual..shall jus wait for the results now..mon's the sa music awrds..n todae was the rehersal.im the first one to perform!!!crap..n they said they wun b ani throphys cos they got no time to make..wa lau..dun hv ani voucher or wad nvm la..but we all wanted a throphy.oh well..guess im destined not to hv ani throphys in my life..i cant wait to go out wif all my frends again..sometimes i reali feel quite "alone" in s.a to be honest wif u..frends is hv la..but true frends r hard to find..all from my sec sch one..nx wk also gotta prepare for open hse..the yr has passed so fast..it seemed like jus a few months ago when we got our postings everything..my biggest regret was not to remain in cj..oh wells..cya guys soon!take care!

2004-09-28T10:53:00.000+08:00

ahhh!!!fianli i can type!FINALLY man!after like one month i think!so much has happened over the past month i cant reali rmb dem now..actuali nth much la..jus wake up..sch..tution..eat..slp..n the cycle repeats itself..had my gp n chi-na exam oredi..wad can i sae..languages..!dis whole wk gotta reali piah oredi manz!exam ends on thur n mon is the music awards thing.i jus found out tt i hv to sing infront of all the j1s in the hall!everytime i think of it i reali freak out!so damn maluating..but if nth goes wrong then itll be quite fun la..=)after tt can go out wif all u pple liaoz..dis time i us make sure i dun hv stomach cramps first..haha!anw..take care all of u !dun study till fall sick k..*hugZ!!!*ill blog more after the exams..provided my blogger doesnt screw up again..ciaoZ!

2004-08-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

ahh..im in love wif the canon in d choir version song..its so soothing..like chases all ur stress away for the moment..i fell in love wif it on the chinese listening compre dae when they played it on the radio actuali..hv been tryin to find it eva since but it was in vain..den went to soph's blog n it was her bkgrnd music..=)so hapi..now ill listen to it everydae till i get sick of it..hehe!my frend came over to my hse 2dae for fun..we went swimming n played monopoly n stuff 2gt wif my sis..it was quite fun..but tt means i gotta work extra hard tmr..beta slp now..tata!
p.s(thx for making my dae such a grt one!)

2004-08-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

heyZ!finali the wkends r here agin..but my ptm on mon..in so dreading it la..its wad im gonna get after tt tt im dreading actuali..my dad doesnt noe all my marks yet..he thinks i hvnt gotten bk some of them cos i hvnt told him yet..oh well,guess im nt the onli one wif dis prob..nth much happened dis past few daes.2nite i shall jus write a short bloggie..so u all dun need to read until so xin ku..haha!oh yes,bt things between me n her..everything has been gg quite smoothly..im taking things easier now n im trying nt to let her teasing gt to me..(she likes teasing me cos she sae im cute when i get teased..so mean)..i noe iv reali changed from like a few months ago n obviously shes beta too..lets hope dis time tt will nt change..thx again guyz for supporting me all the wae..id reali die w/o u all!=)muahZ!niteZ!

2004-08-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

hihi!happi bdae spore!one more dae left to enjoy myself..*sob*since soph asked for my experience at the music awrds audition i shall tok abit bt it here..it was quite ok..woke up at 7 in the morning to warm up my voice,the thing was at 9.atfirst i was quite freaked out cos singing solo n all tt ma..but after singing the first line i got the hang of it n i jus tried to hv fun n enjoy the "moment' while singing..haha!results will be out this wk i think..wish me luck!
had a cls bbq at my frends hse yesterdae..thk God i didnt hv a tummyache after tt..but i did had fun dere..my fren got thrown into the pool n then when he got out he slipped n fell right bk in again..it was hilarious..!den one of my gd frend "scolded" me for gettin bk wif her..said she didnt expect me to get bk wif her again after wad she did..but i think she was kd onli la..sometimes i duno wad to sae oso..stil feel abit scared sometimes but atleast if anithing happens it wun be for the first time animore..the first time is the deepest as they sae..but choy la..hope evrythin works out fine..
spore idol was quite funny too..esp the lemon tree guy n the guy hu cldnt even b heard..i mite consider joining season 2 after watching tonights episode..haha!tt kinda standard oso can..tts all for now..niteZ!

2004-08-07T12:43:00.000+08:00

im bk again..yea!d long wkend tt iv been waiting for is finali here!but tt means tt d exams r even closer now..=( so cannot play too much too..went sentosa yesterdae n canoed for 1hr..was quite fun cos the water was quite choppy so the canoe rocked here n there..den went to pick seashells at the small "island" place oppo. the beach..so pathetic tt place..jus one or two seashells onli..haha!n tt place has alot of big disgusting flies too!eee!anw,dis wk nth much happened..yesterdae's national dae celebration was quite boring,went to sch jus to watch pple play games organised by the diff. houses..wad a waste of time..it was someone bdae on thur so i went to celebrate wif him yesterdae..here's a piece of quite big news for ya'll...im bk wif u noe hu..i noe wad u all mus be thinking..huh..she like tt still want to get bk...haha!i told myself to gv it one LAST chance n if it works out den =),if ani of the shit happens again den..the nx time itll be for real i promise..i guess we've learnt alot from the past 2yrs n7months..iv learnt not to be so demanding or senstitive n to take some things easi n she has understood some tings like surface beauty isnt everything n its the heart tt is d most impt..d reason y she came bk was cos she tot tt iv changed for the beta n she liks me like tt..actuali i was always like tt last time..jus tt some of the tings tt she always did to me made me change..n sometimes made me feel sad..but now,i can handle things beta after tt fall..hopefully it'll work out dis time after maturing from the last..wish i cld sae more here but for safety reasons beta not..tts all for now..byeZ!

2004-07-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

heyheyz!its been suuuuccchh a long time since iv blogged..sorie to all my dedicated "fans" out there..rang ni shi wang le..iv been reali busi lately wif all my work n stuff..reali no time to come online..after work will watch tv like the apprentice n amazing race..luckily fri no nice shows den can come online 4 awhilw..iv also been practisin hard for the music awards auditions tmr..i mus sae im getting quite sick of the song..(cant blame me la..sing almost everydae leh..)haha!but no choice..gotta love it!im so scared for tmr..i hv a bad feeling im gonna screw it up cos of my nervousness n stuff..sing in a grp not tt bad..now im all by myself!ahhhh...wish me luck den!hope lady luck will be on my side n my voice wun sound like a toads voice tmr..i want a voice of an angel...haha!beta hv a gd nites rest tonight..miss u all guys!dun thinkiv forgotten bt u all jus cos im busi k..ill nv forget frends hu made an impact in my life e.g..Soph,Simwan,Ruifen,Sam,Jan n Jacqueline from my cj class..*hugZ*4 u all!take care!niTeZ!

2004-07-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

here i am again..on a quiet sun night pouring out all d feelings in my heart..not so pleasant ones i mus sae..i seriously feel veri lousy now..im sure u noe bt wad..my results..some pple i noe hv like passed everything n i am the total oppo..iv nv in my entire life failed ani exam b4..n when i did..i failed everything..guess theres a first time to everything..cos of tt,iv reali been working harder n pushin myself more dis wk..esp yest..i was doin work the whole dae till 1 but i noe even tt is not enuff..lets c wad i can do to improve myself..
1.PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE..(but how to when i dun even hv time to finish my normal hw)
2.READ MORE REFERENCES...(how to when i cant even finish my work..)
3.spend less time on tv n com..(tts wad i hv been doin..but jus enuff time to finish all my work)
so bottomline is..i dun hv the extra time to do extra stuff..duno la..i guess maybe tuition takes up half of my spare time too..mon-chinese,tue-piano,wed-choir,thur-chinese,fri-thank God nth..sat-chem,sun-phy n maths..its not tt im forced to hv dem..i want them for myself cos i noe w/o dem maybe ill hv 4 f9s?enuff of studies..
the music awards audition is dis SAT!!!n i still think i sound horrible even after all the singing lessons..when im under pressure..i sound totali diff..like my notes go haywire..n i get so damn nervous..die la like tt..audition i think ill be shaking lik a leaf den!when i asked someone to listen on the phone todae..the person told me..i dun sound like the original singer!...of cos la..aiyoh..if i do i dun need to study oredi..but i took tt as a hint tt i sounded like a frog or sth..nvm,still got 5 more daes to practice..if by fri i cant get over my fear of singing infront of pple,mayb i shldnt go for the auditions..hehe!
my mum's goin h.k tmr till thur for summer sale..yay!gonna get new clothes n stuff..i wun miss her but ill be worried for her safety..somemore she sae got typhoon or sth..hope there wun be like an outbrk of birdflu or sars or sth..
kk..gonna slp now..dreading tmr..mon blueZ!niteZ!

2004-07-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

one wk hvnt blogged again..actuali im hapi bt tt cos it means tt iv been spending less time online which i shld..when i recieved all my papers bk,i told myself not to gv up n tt i hv to be more disciplined too..tt means cut dwn on tv shows n com..my results were like shit..reali like the worse kinda shit..all 40 sth one..onli hapi for phy even though i failed..gt 48 cos tts supposed to be the hardest n it was one of my best..got 5th in clss!hehe!its at times like this when i hafta find joy in this kinda stupid wae to keep me going..n my chem...49!!!missed by one mark onli..!eng n chinese i passed..how to tell my dad man..he'll skin me alive..hope he understnds..mus study harder..no more last min work for me..but alwys seem tired these few daes..haiz..
my mum appeared on tv too..haha!she was modelling for the opening of her frends jewellry shop n she got interviewed..quite wierd seeing ur mum on tv for dis kinda thing..but then again,dancing n modelling r hobbies..almost becoming her "job" now..!
we hv decided to sing when u believe n cant help fallin in love for tchers dae..hope everything will go well..atleast gv the choir come reputation..2daes 'performance" at st andrews cathedral went quite well..atleast te teachers said they cld hear us..the worst thing a choir can feel is when they actuali sing their lungs out oredi but due to mike problems or the place being too dry,it comes out soft..oh wells..screw ups happen..
n yes..i HATE PW!hu doesnt right..its taking up o much of our time..!auditions nx sat..beta start practicing more..
"...can u paint with all the colours of the wind.."
haha!wish me luck!n a special *hugZ!* to all my gfs out dere..dun be disheartend by ur results k..its onli common test..wads mst impt is promos!we can do it!n i think ill be bloggin onli bt once or twice a wk on fri to sun like tt..ill write everything tt happened in tt wk k..cos gotta spend less time on com..yupz..niteZ!

2004-07-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

got bk my maths on thur..im nt gonna sae wad i got..too embarassing..haiz..nvm..ill work harder..phy is gonna be worse i noe..haha..dis sux!had chinese listening compre todae..i made 2 mistakes!tts veri costly!actuali i put c for the last qn den last min change to a..n the ans is c!ahhh!!!2 marks for listening is alot..!nt tt my chinese is gd somemore..but i luved the song they played jus b4 the exam..the cannon in d choir version..so cool man..mus try to sing tt!n on wed my conductor told us tt we might b goin to hawaii for tour dis dec..now the onli prob is tt some pple hv financia diff. n so we're trying to think of waes to solve the prob..but its almost everyone..i wanna go!!n we'll also b having a concert in jan..n performing on teachers dae..so mani activities but its gd!=)yesterdae we had an internal sch fun fair oso..was quite fun at first but after playing all the games..it got kinda boring..atleast dere wasnt ani lessons..hehe!tts bt all tt happened dis wk..oh yes n dis is wad iv been feeling lately..in a nutshell:some of the things tt pple hv been doin r making me unsure bt stuff..n cos of tt..sometimes i feel im nt being taken for real..i duno la..maybe its p.m.s..but cant be wad..its not tt time of the month yet..nx wk den is..haha!oh well..nitenite!

2004-07-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

had phy spa todae..was quite easi thank God..i love spas..so far both chem n phy r managable..unlike the papers..i heard the highest for phy in one class was 43/80 n one other class half the class got f9 for maths..haha!wad can i sae..told u it was hard..hope i can jus meet the 1A,2AO criteria dis time.tink we might be getting bk some papers tmr..im dreadin maths man..wad a bad experince..choir tmr..ah!wish me luck..hope the pple wun throw stones at me or sth..went for chem tuition todae..my 1st lesson of the yr..actuali she was my chem tuition teacher last yr as well..she told me after o's to try on my own first which i did..but after common test i told myself beta not take animore chances..if not it might be too late..anw,4 me..tuition gvs me a "sense of security" somehow..guess i hv been growing up in a veri "tuition" environment..but it has helped me alot..otherwise,i wldnt be in s.a liao..n i wanna specially sae dis..CONGRATS SOPH ON BECOMING THE PRESIDENT OF PEER SUPPORT!!*high 5 girl*animore other pple on the wae of becoming sth?myabe simwan u can be the pres of c.o..haha!n rui fen..ur in track right?maybe the captain?:)hu noes?but no matter wad u all r u all will always be my gd gd frends n ill nv 4gt ya'll k..ill invite all of u to my wedding n gv u gd seats..den u can make a speech bt me too..beta me gd ah!haha!ok..think im goin outta pt now..beta slp now..niTeZ!

2004-07-05T23:49:00.000+08:00

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2004-07-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

waa..schs starting again tmr!n its all the wae till promos!sien..!did mth much todae..mum didnt allow me to go out wif my frends..so stupid..cos she sae i didnt do well for exams..she noes cos she see my face everydae so long after a paper..so stayed at hm until bt 5 den i went for vocal lessons..i decided to change my talentime song from come on over to colours of the wind..due to various reasons..hehe!after my final piano exam im gonna focus on my voice..iv so much more interest in tt..cant wait to get over n done wif classical piano...eee!tts bt all for 2dae!:)

2004-07-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

yay!exams r over!!!hapi bt tt but nt hapi cos it was reali sucky..think ill fail like maths,phy,maybe econs..maybe everything...haha!haiz..mus work harder from tues onwards..cannot carry on like dis..i admit la..i need more practice.enuff of the bad news..the gd news is tt i became the choir president..haha!quite excited cos these wed we're taking over oredi..but scared at the same time cos anthing go wrong im the first person to be blamed!hope nth goes wrong..had an ex-co dinner at suntec city country manna jus now..it was quite fun la mus sae..all the seniors were like telling us wad to do n wad to expect..my goal for the choir is to get goal for syf of cos n to do a tour nx yr!if the choir get a bronze ill reali cry..silver..ok la..haha!
went to watch spider man on fri too!it was reali gd!think he looks beta in this movie..kirsten dunst too..everyone else shld watch it!its worth it!
alot of things hv been happening too..i wun sae wad r they now..dun think its the right time to..but wadeva it is..i dun wanna be hurt again..id be damn pissed if i were to be hurt again..theres onli one thing i can sae..iv learnt the most impt thing in a relationship is TRUST..no trust=no love..its useful advice..haha!niteZ!

2004-06-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

4 more daes..:(studied phy todae..still havnet finished all of it..my plan is to study phy n maths by fri den study econs over the wkends but im afraid i wun hv enuff time..ahh..todae my mum told me tt she has tix to this fashion show at rouge,another disco place..n i asked if i cld bring my frends along n she said yes..yay!but i think on sat wun go until so late like tt night la..im nt havoc or anithing but i was thinking even if i stayed at hm i wun study after 10 oso so no diff la..atleast can enjoy one nite more b4 sch starts!beta make the most outta it!=)im still a veri gd girl!hehe!reali...enuff for now..Zzzzz!

2004-06-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

nth interesting happened the past 2 daes..hv been studyin almost the whole dae..went to sch for chinese for 9 to 3 sth yesterdae..quite a waste of time la..den came hm n started work again!den todae went bk to ij to collect my cert..i kinda had this "nice unexplainable" feeling when i recieved it..like all the A's there..hehe!duno wad to blog bt oso..jus sad tt the hols gonna be over soon n like usuali after exams its the hols but now after exams gotta continue wif lessons..so sien!5 more daes...beta enjoy waking up late..niteZ!

2004-06-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

i had such a blast last nite..omy..wad an experience!my mum n her frend brought me sam jan n jue to centro n after tt we went to lola..this club nearby..cos tt frend of hers noes the boss or sth there so we cld get in quite easily..i dint reali drink much cos i didnt dare to..(c i so guai!)but one of my frend drank till she got so high she cldnt even stand straight!haha!i enjoyed the dancing more den anithing..though the music was like some kinda tribal music wif a twist to it..den some angmoh pple wanted to dance wif us..it was damn funny..slpt at 4.30 n woke up at 11 den went home to study after stayin over at hyatt cos gt free rm again..
im so screwed man..onli studied chem so far..reali cannot concentrate..i dun like this exams after holidaes thing..i rather it b4 the hols atleast we'll hv the mood to study for it!oh well..beta push myself to study harder if not my dad will surely come after me..beta slp now!niteZ!

2004-06-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

hapi bdae to me....!!!hehe!went out wif some of my clsmates 2dae..walked ard p.s den went to the arcade at the mrt station dere..for once i didnt dance para para..haha!we tried the samurai game..i kinda sucked at it..no strength to hit the stupid monsters..haha!den the wae my frend hit lik taking the sword n slicing cucumber like tt..!bishy bashy was fun too!hit until hand damn pain..but i had fun dere!den i treated dem to starbucks..actuali my dad ask me to treat them one la=)5 of us shared an oreo cheesecake n chocalate cake!yUmMy!after tt went for dinner wif my family..my dad bought me dis blue swatch watch..!oh so sad..its 12.08 now..my bdaes over..:(oh well, all gd things hv to come to an end!
*THX TO ALL THOSE HU WISHED ME HAPI BDAE N FOR REMEMBEREING MY BDAE!N ESP THOSE HU TOOK TIME TO SPEND MY BDAE WIF ME!I REALI APPRECIATE EVERYTHING FRM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!*
special thx to sim wan,rui fen n sophia for the bdae cake n the surprise!
shi hua,sussani,wei chen n wei guang for goin out on my bdae wif me
sam n jan for goin cruise n staying over at hyatt wif me
n...someone..somehow..
niteZ!

2004-06-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

sorie guys..*paiseh*..one wk oredi..duno y nowadaes wheneva i go online jus got no time to blog cos busi tokin to pple..anw..will try to rmb wad happened the past wk..lets c..
wed--(cant rmb)
thur--(cant rmb either)
fri--(cant rmb)
sat:(went genting..haha!think im getting old..actuali i am gonna be one yr older in 4 mins time..hehe!)
d bus ride was sucky man..d toilet stops were so far apart n i reali had high tide!!when the bus stopped i was the first one outta there..haha!dis is to pple hu wanna go genting..dun take 5 star coaches..take grassland..its the best..den went shoppin n arcade wif my cousin when i was dere..genting to me is actuali like a huge shopping centre..go dere mainly cos its my "family tradition" to..n im sick of para para now..haha!
den went dwn to d new times square in k.l..the theme park quite fun la..sat the roller coaster 3 times..n this 360 degrees hammer thing 3 times..it was so shiok i cld hv sat tt 10 times..i like lifted my hands up while the thing was spinning..haha!den bought 2 tops dere..n den..it was time to go hm..but i was quite hapi to go hm actuali cos my bdae comin..

2004-06-08T10:56:00.000+08:00

whao..havent blogged for almost a wk..hehe!quite busi lately..choir camp last thur was ok..nt as bad as i tot it wld be..but by the time i managed to slp at nite,we had to wake up oredi!guess its always like tt during camps heh?den went for ex-co interview the nx dae..i was nominated by some pple..yay!atleast pple like me..!=)den they ask me wad i wanted to be n i said..i wanna try for president..hehe!actuali iv been thinking bt tt for quite some time oredi..if cannot den section leader was my 2nd choice..lets c whether im lucky enuff to get it!

gtg change now..gonna watch harry potter wif my frends now..finali man!its like the whole world oredi watched it!ill continue bloggin when im hm!cya!

2004-06-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

heyz..jus got bk from cruise..can sae it was quite fun..filled wif some new experiences!like..me sam n jan managed to get into the casino one nite wif the help of my older cousin n her frends..i was reali scared at first cos i looked the youngest..as usual..but i wore like this miniskirt n jus walked in confidently..atleast tried to..n yeah!got in..took $50 from my mum n gambled it away while playing "dai sai"..haha!but the experience was damn good..all the cameras ard n the security officers dere..
on the first nite i joined this karaoke contest n guess wad..i came in first..hehe!atfirst i tot cld sing ani song we wanted..den turned out to be some "country theme" so had to sing a song tt was chosen by them..all the songs were like damn old like elvis presly tt kind so i jus chose one damn stupid song..itsy bitsy teeny weeny!haha!went up there n jus sang n kinda danced abit oso can get first..haha!

2nd dae went dwn to penang..the food was reali good..i miss the char kuay teow man!n went shopping in some shopping centre..felt quite gd cos my dad gv me quite alot of money to spend..so i jus went on a shopping spree!hehe!in spore sure cannot like tt one..
3rd dae went to langkawi..the shopping dere sucks so we didnt go shopping..instead we went to the beach!guess wad i did..i went parasailing!!!!!!!it was soooooooo shiok up there!i went twice!but 2nd time the man had to go up wif me cos the wind too strong so scared i cannot come dwn..haha!i wanna go again!sam n jan enjoyed it too!
4th dae we jus stayed in the ship doin nth..the ship is actuali reali boring..iv also been worrying bt my studies the whole time..esp maths!!!now bk to reality oredi..
tmr got choir camp somemore..sian la..my gd frend not goin..onli goin cos of one reason i shant sae it here..hope it wun be as sucky as the orientation..cant wait for genting n my bdae to come..but tt also means tt exams r nearer..cnt wait for harry potter nx wk too!
oh ya one more thing forgot to sae..no offence but i reali cant stnd the indians from india..there were like so mani on the ship n they had no manners or courtesy wadsoever..they jus pushed n shoved their wae into the lift..n spoke so loudly n of cos..the smell!dun think im racist or wad..if u were there u wld surely sae the same thing too hor!hehe!
kk..enuff for tonite!nitez!

2004-05-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

ahh..tmr i goin cruise!half of me cant wait to go..but the other half noes tt it will miss some pple n perhaps my...bed?hehe!hope there wun be ani terrorist attacks in langkawi or penang cos the ship will be stopping over there..finali the hols hv come!!!iv been looking forward to it for quite some time liao..but i noe tt the nx 4 wks r gonna past damn fast cos of all the activities i hv..

still stress bt sch work n common test..esp. maths!argh!!stupid trigo..i hv so mani doubts n unanswered qns..i hope i can catch up durin the hols..went to watch troy yest.gd show i mus sae..although quite long..sit there till my but pain..brad pitt was hot n orlando bloom was ok la..my cls went to kbox man!so fun..but i dint go..hope can go wif them another time!

i also submitted the applicatin form for the sajc music awards thing..my frends didnt wanna join animore so i plucked up my courage n decided to go for the individual category..i actuali submitted it over the deadline but the auditions in july so hope the teacher will still accept..

let me see wad else happened over the past wk..oh yes..cant wait to go see harry potter wif u guys!iv been waiting for tt show for duno how mani months oredi!gtg now..gettin late!happi hols everyone!nitez!

2004-05-23T23:07:00.000+08:00

reali busi the last few nites..either watching tv or doin work..quite excited for american idol nx wk..dunno hu i want to win oso..my fav person oredi gone..hmm..latoya!went for dinner wif my cls on fri..we had jap food at clementi..it was quite fun la..a class outing finali..my june hols is quite packed..wif all the trips n meetin up wif old frends..goin to watch harry potter too!haha!DRACO MALFOY!!!his hair sux but..he's cool!last wk of sch!cant wait for the hols!!!oh ya n do u beleive it,my mum said she'll try to bring me clubbing during the june hols wif her frend n her daughter too..it'll be quite weird la but i dun mind..jus for fun..i mean..how mani mums wld actuali bring their daughters to a club..hehe!nitez!

2004-05-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

IF YOU ASKED ME TO (Celine Dion)

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

2004-05-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

hmm..2dae was quite alright for me..slowly letting go..i jus realised some stuff tt i wished i knew 2 yrs ago..den i wld hv nv..anw..ill jus try to let things go slowly..2dae someone bought an advanced bdae present for me..its this pink shoe keychain thing..when i saw some pple selling it at the canteen i fell in love wif it straight away but it was quite ex so i didnt buy it..but my frend decided to buy it for me..hehe!=)thx!how i wish i cld tell u how i reali feel..but i guess i dun hv the courage to yet..when im wif u sometimes i jus forget bt everything..but..things r not as simple yet..*sigh*
niteZ!

2004-05-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

damn pissed la..n hurt..n cheated..i still dun get it..i c her whole dae no emotion,no feeling..n im like the fool hu has all this rubbish feelings inside me..worrying my ass off everydae..i mean i reali cant help it la..not tt i want to oso..somebody pls numb my heart..or let me go for a brain transplant..i gv everything i hv into this..now she saes tt "she jus wants to forget bt all dis n maybe embrace someone else in future"wtf wtf wtf!!!!i dunno whether to laugh or to cry or to kill someone?tell me which person in the world wldnt feel like dis now given the situation..hope ill cool dwn by tmr..my heart beating like mad again..n my eyes r watery at the same time..n my mind is a mess..wad is this man..mix n match ah?UURRRGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!im gona kill someone 2nite..in my slp..!

2004-05-14T22:59:00.001+08:00

stupid p.w..mus redo everyting again cos our teacher said our topic not foccused enuff n diff to do oso..y mus there b project work in the first place..wad a waste of time..
i want the june hols to come..2 more wks till i can party like mad..im gonna do all the things to make me hapi atleast for tt period of time to make up for all the shit iv been feelin recently..ice skating..cruise..karoke contest on the cruise..(ha!)..stayover..clubbin'..meetin up wif old frends..oh man..i need all of them man..but no matter how much fun i might hv..it still wun be the same inside w/o her..its jus different..
one wk has passed..but it seemed like one long n painful month 4 me..dunno if u reali noe wad iv been goin thru everydae..sometimes i feel strong but honestly most of the time i wish things cld b the same again..iv reali been trying to get on wif life..but its much easier said than done..my heart jus doesnt wanna gv up on her cos she reali means so much to me..n i cant let the past 2+yrs of stuff jus go like tt..im not gonna gv up jus like tt..i feel quite angry sometimes..tt i gv my heart to her onli for her to brk it in the end..its so unfair..urgh!!!not onli do i hv to deal wif tt..i oso gotta deal wif another damn !!! thing..dun wanna sae it here..y i so suai one?!?y mus dis rubbish happen to me..wonder when itll all end..?pls let it be soon..duno how much more my heart can take..:(all the slpness nights..lost of appetite..even my teacher said i was deep in thoughts during pw period when my grp was being observed by him..duh..tt was the dae when everything happened..but how can i tell him..urghh!but still..ill wait..

2004-05-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

tot of joining spore idol but in the end decided not to..cos scared to get criticised on national tv la..*sigh*..yet another dae has passed..i dun even feel like anione's special best frend..i was hoping i cld feel like tt atleast but i feel nth like tt now..im tryin to think less bt the whole thing..but sometimes it reali gets to me..cant wait for all the fun stuff in june..so i can take my mind off of dis for awhile..luckily now got no exams..some pple tell me ill take atleast a few wks or months to get over dis..if u ask me..i dunno how long ill take..my heart still feels close to hers but yet its so far away..the feeling reali sux..nitey!

2004-05-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Dreaming Of You Lyrics
by Selena

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up late and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there (Am I there)
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you

I'll dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

2004-05-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

in the monrning i tried not to look at her direction durin lect..tried not to look at her at all anywhr cos scared it wld bring up memories..but durin recess i dlnt help it ani longer..my heart gv in n i watched her from afar..i was reali prd of her for getting pass the council interview..wished i cld go over n congratulate her personali but now it seems that her cls has this thing against me too..duno la..im still so torn apart by dis whole thing..almost broke dwn in the evening again..my heart still doesnt wanna let go..wad can i do..i try to smile n laugh in sch cos im reali trying to be strong..but it jus takes one memory to trigger my emotions..somehow i still want dis thing to continue..actuali i reali want it to..but tts not up to me to decide..ill jus hv to wait n c..
*shooting star whr r u when i need u..*
nitez..

2004-05-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

..wad can i sae..this is life..everything happens for a reason..still think its unfair though..jus like tt..i still hv feelings inside n they jus wun go away..i reali wanna let go but its hard..bein best frends or wad is reali different compared to..so mani things r missing n suddenli gone frm my life now..i noe i hv to move one..im actuali quite scared of goin bk to sch tmr..dunno how itll be like when i c her..will all my emotions go hey wire again?or will i b stong n look on the bright side of things?but still,thx for still wanting to be my "special best frend"..i appr. tt lots..n thx again to all my dear frends hu r helping me get over this..

"god..pls take my feelings away day by day..pls gv me strenght to accept it n move on..amen"

nitez..

2004-05-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Groove Coverage - 7 Years and 50 Days

7 Years and 50 Days,
the time is passing by,
nothing in this world could be,
as nice as you and I.

And how could we break,
up like this,
and how could we be wrong,
so many years,
so many days,
and I still sing my song.

Now I run to you,
like I always do,
when I close my eyes,
and think of you,
such a lonely girl,
such a lonely world,
when I close my eyes I dream,
I return to you,
like I always do,
when I close my eyes and think of you,
such a lonely girl,
such a lonely world,
when I close my eyes I dream,
of you.

7 years and 50 days,
now just look at me,
am I the girl,
I used to be,
so damn what do you see.

And how could we break,
up like this,
and how could we be wrong,
so many years,
so many days,
and I still sing my song.

2004-05-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

so this is the end for us..i didnt want it..but wad can i do when the person has lost her feelings for me oredi..sad..a new life..a new start..still feeling abit torn apart..actuali quite..how can anione accept it jus like tt..wad an emotional roller coaster man..till the point tt i fell ill..i dunno wad the future holds reali..but i jus wanna let go of everything too now..wads the pt of holding on..onli thing is tt its easier said than done..its so unfair..d other person jus finds fun outta it n i hv to be the one hu has to go thru all this shit n pain..i dun reali regret noeing the person,jus kinda wad tt i trusted her so much till i put my whole heart n soul into it..n now..!i reali need my frends man..n God..pls help me to forget my feelings..it reali hurts when i hold on to it..im oso scared itll affect my studies..tts the last thing id want..thx to all those hu r helping me out big time..i reali appr it ya'll!since u wanna be '"special best frends" now..i jus hv to go along wif it..i dun mind actuali..but jus hope tt ull reali treat me like one..uv reali done alot of damage to my heart so pls b gentle wif it now as my special frend ya?u noe wad,d person i knew b4 to me has died..n now im like tryin to get over someones death n finding a new frend outta it..nth can reali be the same animore..i jus pray wif all my heart tt ill get beta..n tt we'll still remain as veri gd "special best frends" too..

2004-05-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

wad a boring wkend..nth much interesting happened again..fri i gv her a surprise by treating her to anything she wanted to make up for sth which i did..we decided on eating sushi in the end so sushi it was..had quite alot of fun actuali..den stopped at 7-11 near my hse n ate instant mashed potato..haha!it was reali nice!$1 onli..mus go again..then studied for econs test todae..cant wait for june hols..jus a few more wks!can meet up wif all my frends like sim wan,soph n rui fen!n my cj classmates!=)yipee!

2004-04-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

S.A thrashed A.J at the volleyball finals 2dae..felt so prd of dem for bringing glory to our sch..hope we can get half dae man!d last few daes hv been pretty normal for me in sch but it was a roller coaster ride for us..2 lazy to type now actuali..maybe another dae..tmr got maths test..beta slp now..niteZ!

2004-04-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

spent the WHOLE dae doin work..so sien..yesteradaes sports dae was cancelled due to the heavy rain..i duno y some pple were rejoicing?i was quite pek chek cos woke up earli for nth..but i did project after tt..went out wif her for awhile yesterdae..veri seldom i can spend my sats away from home cos my parents dun reali allow me to go out on wkends..anyway ill be starting my phy tuition nx sat..reali need it man..i cant fail phy!me n her jus had i huge tok bt her being a changed person..we were toking bt the fact tt she isnt the person whom she used to be n even she admits tt she is less "hardworking" nowadaes..all cos of her stupid frends..tell her no need to do so much..i feel veri sad cos i hvnt changed since the past 2 yrs plus but she has changed quite abit..haiz..she said she will try to be less lazy but she has told me tt sooo mani times oredi..its getting hard to believe oso..but i still do la..my feelings towards her will nv change so long as she doesnt change too..i reali hope dis will be the last time we'll hv to tok bt this..its so saddening..n worst of all she thinks im being too irritating n demanding..im not..im still me..it her hu has changed tts y she feels like tt..haiz..but jus now tt i still ___ u alot la..cos i noe ur still the same person deep dwn in ur heart..
gdnite!

2004-04-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

waa..past few nites veri busi..so didnt hv time to go online at all..anyway,i shall try to rmb wad took place on the past few daes..
tues:was the 10times200m inter class relay n it was the first time in my whole entire life tt i took part in a sports dae event..other than pri sch la..(see i dun reali lik to take part in sports events cos no confidence)..i was so hapi abt the fact tt when i was running my 200m,i was either 3rd or 4th..tt is reali an accomplishment for me man!i jus pretended tt someone was chasing me wif a knife..haha!i jus..ran!!!but in the end we didnt qualify..but im still hapi tt i had the guts to take part..hearing the cls shout out ur name is veri encouraging i mus sae..!

wed:had choir 2dae..me n my frend joyce...we reali felt like "crying" during choir..the choir is so slack n we nv even do proper warm ups..how can u not hv warm ups n start singing..even the president doesnt noe tt warm ups is essential..but if we tell her this,im sacred pple mite think we're so thick skinned..it was reali diff. bk in ij..the teachers n com. were so strict n tts how we were gd..i seriously hope some pple in the choir will put in more effort n not think the choir is a slack cca cos its reali not..haiz..ij choir rox!

2dae:we were let off earlier todae to go n support the volleyball players at ccab..we won!yay!mus sae the sch spirit is quite strong..!nth much happened todae..2 u noe hu u r..thx for spending half of the afternoon wif me n for being nice most of the time the past few daes..reali makes me happi!hope u can stay dis wae always k?ohya..i wanna sabo someone..someone told me this todae..
"on the 4 daes tt ull be away,i will go on irc the first dae..flirt wif pple on the 2nd dae..hv a gf on the 3rd dae..n dump her on the 4th dae when im bk..!"urgh!!!!wad a meanie!no la..ur d best la!

goin to watch idol soon..hope jasmine is out..cant std her act cute face!i want latoya to win!go latoya!nitez!!!

2004-04-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

d ij choir concert last nite was reali good man!so nice to see my ex-choir perform..n the pri sch choir was so adorable!i kept goin...so cuute!hehe!went to watch it wif her last nite..im quite hapi she didnt fall aslp..thx!m not goin for tt karoke contest at raffles country club animore..my dad sae its too far n theres no pt..oh well..heck la..
choir orientation todae was damn boring..but for the sake of my passion for singing,ill still stay in the choir..oh yes..2nite she did sth real sweet for me..she sacrificed watching the fhm bikini heaven thing cos she knew tt id feel abit wad bt her watching it..so sweet!i was reali touched..
feel quite "controlled' now by someone..but i gotta try to understand the reason y things r like tt..

2004-04-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

cant wait for ij's choir concert on fri..!finali our veri own choir nite..although i kinda hated some of my choir practices sometimes,i still miss my choir in one wae or another..all the performances n concerts..ij choir rox man!hope s.a's one will be jus as gd soon!i found 2 other pple hu r willing to join the sajc music awards wif me!so exciting..!but mus study hard for promos first cos the thing is after promos..i think she is mad..she ran 10 rnds ard the track during recess todae n oso on other daes..i mean..which normal being wld run so mani rnds unneccessarily..oh well..if it makes her hapi..i hv nth to sae..but thx for bein nice to me todae!=)

2004-04-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

2dae 4 p.e those pple hu r taking part in the 10times 200 metre inter cls relay had to practice running n i was one of those pple..hehe!surprised?i cldnt believe tt i cld actuali run quite fast n this is according to wad my frends said..they were surprised too!we were running wif a PINK baton...PINK!it was brand new n was so nice!hope we'll get into the finals atleast..i went 2 my frend's hse after sch to paint a banner too!along the wae we were joking n tokin alot of crap..n some dirty stuff too..nv knew some pple in my class were actuali so dirtty..hmmm..guys!goin to slp now..nitez!

2004-04-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

hvnt been blogging cos this few daes got so much work to do..spent the last 3 daes trying to finish up all my work..i want the june hols to come soon..!!!y?cos im goin on a cruise wif my frends to celebrate my bdae n my dad oso promised me tt for doin well for my o's..n i wanna go out wif all my old frends too..miss dem lots!1T17!!!oh ya..im gonna take part in this karoke contest in raffles country club.haha!i love taking part in these things..dun win oso nvm..its jus for the fun of it..im gonna join the contest in star cruise too..yay!so fun...cant wait!=)jus feel like telling her 2 tt i miss her alot..!

2004-04-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

i need a shoulder..or jus someone by my side now..i screwed the nite up i tink..tears keep welling up in my eyes..they jus wun leave me alone..it has been quite some time since i last felt like this..i wun sae wad izzit..i jus hope i can slp hapi tonight..but i doubt so..had quite a gd dae in sch 2dae..gettin closer to my classmates which is a gd thing!my wish kinda came true..but sadly not a gd nite..all i wld sae is its not nice feelin worried for a person..n then hving the person being irri. wif u in the end..it reali isnt nice..

*whr is the love..*

2004-04-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

...i got nth to sae bt the ms uni finalists man..is spore reali tt bad?ok nvm...but seeing the show live was quite an experience!nth interesting happened the past 2 daes..first time i did some work in a long time..i revised my econs todae..yay!feel a little sense of satisfaction!someone has been nice n sweet again over the wkends..hvnt "argued" for quite some time now..hope it stays this wae..it reali makes me happier n more secure..nitenite!

2004-04-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

i feel happier these daes n more comfortable wif my new cls..some pple r starting to open up too..but the cls seems to b divided into 2 grps..but i wun care so much now..im hapi tt i hv some gd frends in my cls atleast!duno y buti feel tt some pple still hv the impression tt im quiet n guai..im so not lor..but i oso got study la..my cls in cj wld noe..in fact,anyone hu noes me will noe..Rite?=)hope nx wk will be even beta n the class will get more united!

cant wait for tmr!goin for the ms uni finals cos my dad noes someone up there..its not tt i wanna go to see them,i jus go for the fun of it~yay!can dress up tmr...cos d dress code put formal..hehe!

hving hiccups now n it jus wun go away..damn!

2004-03-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

yesterdaes finale was so fun!!!esp the last past when we jus danced like mad in the hall..we were jumping n screamin n bringing the hse dwn until my throat abit pain now..i feel like there is more sch spirit in s.a but in terms of pple,the pple in cj r nicer still!todae was the start of all the lectures..i felt quite out in my class cos most pple oredi knew one another but i tried to make the most out of it cos no matter wad,they r gonna be my class for the nx 2 yrs..but i tink the uni rox man..the best in s'pore!haha!she was quite nice to me yesterdae n todae..no more "rubbish" like last wk..gona watch idol now..my fav show..nite!

2004-03-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

had orientation todae..my class is quite ok actuali..jus tt some pple abit quiet..anyway,todae was full of cheers n wet games..luckily i didnt reali get dirty or soaked cos me n a few other pple hu r hving our m. were excused from the veri wet games..hehe!the mass dance was quite fun but the song was stupid..like line dancing tt kind..cj's one beta!tmr's the finale..so fast..gonna scream my head off tmr!
*Once A Saint Always A Saint*..had fun wif her todae too..durin mass dance n after sch..much beta than last wk!yay!=)

2004-03-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

nth much happened todae..felt like singing in the afternoon so i spent bt 1 n a half hrs singing karoke n dancing..hehe!one of my fav pastimes!im looking forward to the sajc music awards which is at the end of this yr..wanna join for fun!these kinda things interest me alot..!den at night i watched the daren n evelyn wedding..some parts were quite sweet la..naturally i was thinking bt MY wedding nx time too..n of u noe hu..i wanna take my wedding photos on a yauht during sunset or sth..or maybe at the beach..!ok i shall stop fantasising..haha!tmr ill noe the pple in my class oredi..reali hope they r nice..last 2 daes to enjoy!:)had quite a hapi dae..time for bed..nitenite!

2004-03-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

bought uniform todae..i reali like the s.a uni..tts one of the reasons y i went there actuali..cos its the best uni eva..but mus get used to the tie la..nth much todae..stayed hm n slacked..i had bad stomach cramps todae as usual on the first dae of my m.!tts y i begged the guy at the door to let me jump q n buy first cos i was in pain..i reali was..not kd..hehe!last few daes to enjoy b4 sch reali starts..mus enjoy to the fullest!still thinking bt cj n my class sometiems..she was much nicer to me todae..though she fell aslp on me last nite..!=)happier these daes..thx to all those hu prayed for me..reali appr it!

2004-03-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

todae played games wif my o.g..was quite fun actuali..i feel closer to them now but we will be goin to our classes on mon oredi so mus sae bye to them when i was jus starting to feel comfortable..anyway,got into the class tt i wanted..04S72 wil be my new class..p,c,m,e..hope the pple there r nice..jus like my class in cj!after sch,i crashed cj for the finale n i hv no regrets at all cos it was so damn fun!the first time in the wk i truly feel hapi!

when i saw all my frends n classmates,i felt so at home again..i think im gonna lose my voice from all tt cheering.hehe!the mass dance was sooooo fun!kinda forgotten some of the steps but still..n when it was time to sing the sch song i reali sang it man..cos i noe it wld be the last time i cld sing it n im prd to hv been in cj!=)after the finale i went for dinner wif my class at some thai restaurant in far east..quite gd food they served there..then went to youth park after tt..we sat dwn n played truth or dare..actuali its jus dare or dare la..but i like dares!there were so mani other cjcians there too..i wun sae wad i got dared to do but it was...fun!hahahahah!goin hm was the saddest part cos i had to leave my cls..duno when ill be able to go out wif them again..im still missing them n think i still will for a long time to come..

she went hm wif me after tt n it was den tt i felt so hapi cos she told me tt she cld be hapi n herself once again..seeing her smile n being so nice n sweet reali melted my heart again..it seemed like such a long time since i last felt tt n when i did..it felt reali nice..i reali hope dis time it wun be a "onli for tt moment" thing animore..i hope n reali pray tt this time..we can finali be truly hapi..

2004-03-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmm..hvnt been bloggin the last few daes..nth much reali happened anyway..the normal lectures n stuff in sch.the last few daes in sch were v boring for me..onli managed to get close to one girl from my o.g..went for brks 2gt..sat 2gt..but i was hapi n thankful jus for tt.."she" as in u noe hu was kinda getting sien of being wif me everydae n told me tt she needed space..so i tried to gv her "space"..it was beta for me too but it wasnt easi sometimes..there were times when i felt like i didnt hv a bf at all cos we were hardly toking..but all tt is over now thankfully..she was so unpredictable the last few daes it was reali driving me up the wall..sometimes can be nice then after a few secs suddenli turn into this..erm..monster?n this wld go on n on..arghh...!yay!its over now..hope it wun come bk again..iv had enuff!

2004-03-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

everything happens for a reason..i got posted to s.a for a reason..i mite not noe wad it is now but ill noe it sooner or later..God will want nth but the best for us..i hv to keep on reminding myself this n hopefully things will get beta..i got to b patient n wait till i find reali gd frends there..but o cos ill nv forget the gd old ones..

hope i hv beta things to write bt tmr..byez!

2004-03-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

my dae was horrible..i dread goin bk tmr..the moment i walked into the sch,i jus felt weird..everything was so foreign n diff to me..as i walked by grps of pple hu spent their first 3 mnths there,i felt even more alone..i looked ard me n i didnt see ani familiar faces...i duno y but to me..i feel more at hm in cj..its like i belong there..but s.a has always been my dream sch..im so confused now..it was such a boring dae too..orientation onli starting nx mon..n the nx few daes we hv to attend lectures can u believe it!

i gotta be strong,gotta hold on for this wk..cant wait to meet my new class..i hope the pple there will be nice n will make me feel like one of them..i duno y but there r times when i fely like crying when i was walking alone in sch..i reali missed everything..i think if i hv close frends here it wldnt be so bad..i noe some ij pple but they all seem to hv their own cliques n i didnt wanna be an extra..so i kept on stickin to her n her frend..

i must be strong..

2004-03-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

the last dae of hols..sien..i dun wan it to end..actuali its jus tt im scared bt tmr..new sch..new frends..everything is so diff..like there r no hm rms unlike cj n the clsrm sizes r so much bigger like 27 while mine was like 16!i reali gotta adapt fast.n i heard tt there wld onli be 2 daes of orientation..tt is so pathetic!i miss cj..i miss my class..i miss my frends..ahh..i reali hope thngs go well the nx few daes n wks..

i was so bored tt i went to the science centre wif my mum n sis todae can u believe it..but some of the stuff there were quite interesting actuali..nth much happened todae..oh..the last episode of "love is beautiful" was reali gd n exciting man..wad a gd ending!

goin to slp soon..i dun wanna go to sch..more like to s.a..*waaaah!*haha!all the best to me..n to all the others hu r like me too..changing schs..i envy all those hu stay put in their jcs..

nitez!

2004-03-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

checked the posting results at 9.30 todae..(i knew they wld release them earlier than 10)hehe!got into s.a n so did someone..seems like nobody else is goin there..:(im hapi n excited but abit scared at the same time..its like i hv to reajust all over again while others dun hv to..but im sure there r alot of pple in the same boat as me..so i shldnt worrie too much!seems like most of my class is staying in cj..tt makes things a whole lot worst..but i gotta learn to move on..but ill always rmb the fun n happi times i shared wif my superb class!ya'll rock!

...its so late n she's still not bk..out wif her frends since like afternoon..feel kinda...duno how to sae..think ill go n slp now..i wanna jus slp n not think bt anithing..ohya..i duno y but my blueblack got bigger..or atleast it seemed too..its more of black than blue actuali..haha!i hope it goes away soon..it's jus hideous la!

gdnite!

2004-03-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

went ice skating todae..n now i hv a blueblack on my knee frm falling dwn..:(but i had a great time wif my frends..i was surprised tt i cld skate by myself n tt my skating had improved!yay!ate my fav shrooms burger again..!

ah...!tmrs posting..im gonna be kiasu n check at 9.30 cos the last time the results were oredi out by tt time..hehe!........still sad im leaving all my frends though..my class jus rox..IT17..ill miss u lots man!

a few screw ups happened along the wae again between "us" but she was still nicer n beta than the last few daes..yipee!

2004-03-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

im so hapi tt things between me n hu else were beta todae..she's finali back to her normal sweet self again..thank God..i can finali slp well tonight..hope she wun be so "lazy"in future animore..*hint..u noe wad i mean..yes U..u notiboi!*hehe!enuff said..nitey nite!*yawnz*

2004-03-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

went to siloso beach todae 2 celebrate sam's bdae..volleyball was boring for me..personali i dun reali like it..so painful..but i went kayaking!(for the first time)i was so excited!i shared the kayak wif grace..n half the time we were letting the current do all the work..so shiok!mus go again!

tmr goin ice skating..the last time i can enjoy b4 sch starts man..dun think im goin out during the wkends...:(im kinda scared for the results of the postings actualli..hope me n her will get into science..still sad tt im leaving all my frends though..

i forgot to sae tt i gv sam this letter n a pressie for her bdae..o cos the letter had all the sweet n mushy stuff..she told me tt she almost teared while reading it..i was so touched by it..though sometimes she can reali be "unreliable" when it comes to certain things..she's still someone special to me..n will always be..

2004-03-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

so gld tt i finali managed to go to escape wif a few of my classmates yesterdae..i feel so prd of myself for sitting the inverter!ahh..it was so fun...goin 360degrees for dunno how mani times..screamed the loudest man..but felt good after screaming..!my frend nx to me was complaning bt the safety belt thing pressing onto his **** too hard..the whole time when i was screamin cos i was scared,he was screaming cos it was pain..damn funny man!

was quite a boring dae for me..didnt go out..(im such a gd girl..)so gld "shes's" back from "her" chalet..reali missed "her"..things were so diff n she seemed like a totali diff person there..hope the nx few daes will be diff for us..i dunno how much more of this i can take reali..
*beta be safe..

tmr's my best frends bdae..im quite sad tt i wun be in the same sch as her n alot of other pple too..so mani pple r staying man..almost my whole cls..they've been askin me to stay since dunno when but i noe its hard for me to stay even though i want to cos of my parents n him..ill reali miss them lots!

cant wait for american idol!myfav show!!!theres one thing i cant stand..he keeps goin on n on bt how pretty jasmine is..urgh!!!!eveytime he sees her on tv..he wld tell me..u noe how **** tt is..(i hope shes out..haha)no la kd..

hope tmr will be fun!go watch idol liao..bye!

2004-03-15T17:28:00.000+08:00

yay!i finali created my blog at last!wif the help of my dear frend sim wan!special thx to her for helping me!=)